Memoir of an Heiress

Saturday, March 29, 2008
1:39 AM

Not in the mood.

I was really thinking of blogging about something, actually I have it on my notepad draft already but I'm nod in the mood right now.

Actually it's not I as myself but it's more on the I my feelings. I'm totally depressed and confused and pissed off right now.

I wish I'll be back on my normal self, ASAP. I can't handle being what I am right now. This is not the usual me and I totally hate it.

Darnfudgeit! What the heck is happening to me? Why am I acting like this? For goodness sake take away this feeling right now.

Labels: emotions

Friday, March 28, 2008
2:27 PM

Fix Me.

I am nowhere to be found.
I feel so lost.
I want to stop from running.
I'm tired.
I'm broken.

FIX ME!
FIND ME!
CHASE ME!
COMFORT ME!
LOVE ME!

Labels: emotions

Thursday, March 27, 2008
1:20 AM

April 28, here I come.

I can't wait, finally graduate na ako. Hindi ko pa nakikita yung grades ko pero confident na ako na makaka-graduate ako kasabay nang mga classmates ko this April 28, 2008.

Kasi naman nakita ko na yung grade ko sa Accounting 2, pinakita sa akin kanina nong professo ko kasi kinukulit ko siya na bigyan niya ako nang additional grade kasi ako ang unang nag-pass sa kanya nong compilation na pinapa-pass niya. Sabi niya hindi ko na kailangan kasi mataas na daw grade ko, syempre hindi ako naniwala kaya ayun pinakita niya sa akin.

Potek! Kahit ako nagulat ako hindi ko akalain na ganun yung magiging final grade ko. Biruin mo ba naman noong Prelim nasa 81.87 ang grade ko tapos noong Midterm naman nasa 76 tapos yung Prefinals nasa 92 ang grade ko. Mas nagulat ako dun sa Finals ko biruin mong makakuha ako nang 99. All-in-all nasa 1.75 ata ang Final grade ko as in yung nasa class card ha. Nagulat talaga ako, hindi ko alam kung anong ginawa ko at naging ganun yung grade ko, hahaha.

Tapos okay na din yung sa World Literature ko. Ewan ko lang kung anong grade ko pero mataas naman ako dun talagang sa Accounting lang ako nagdadalawang isip pero gaya nga nang sinabi ko okay na lahat.

Excited na ako, wohoooo!

Yun nga lang meron pa akong isang problem. Hindi ko alam kung saan ako bibili nang damit for my graduation ayaw ko kasi nang meron kaparehas tapos gusto ko ala Blair Waldorf ang style para wala talaga kaparehas.

Ayun lang. Natutuwa lang ako kaya ako napa-blog.

congratulation batch 2008!

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Labels: blogging, taglish

Monday, March 24, 2008
12:37 AM

I'm a certified movie buff

I was on a long Holy Week vacation and I taught that I'll used to not doing anything but to bum around the house and make myself a total pig for always munching on the food I saw on the fridge.

Anyway, I was bored and I don't want to gain more weight since I know I loose a lot of them fats when I got sick for a week I decided to watch movies instead.

Boyfriend and I borrowed movies from Video City where he is a member. We borrowed 3 movies, actually it should be 4 but since I forgot the title of the other one and since I'm not interested to blog about it I'm not going to include it on the list.

Oh well, we borrowed Pirates of the Caribbean: At World's End, Enchanted, and Romeo + Juliet.

I know, I know!

But I've been pretty busy with school that now is the only time that I can watch it. I'm not yet too late, right?

The movie is soooo loved. Everything is so magical, just like how Giselle would describe it. Honestly speaking, I cried. I don't know why I just did.

On thing I hate about the movie is how it made my so-called fairy tale point of view was changed. You know, that the prince and princess would live happily ever after. Of course they live happily ever after but what I meant was Giselle + Edward and Robert + Nancy.

Oh well, as long as both of them live happily ever after I guess it's all good and I'll still and will forever believe in fairy tales.

Plus the songs are lovely. I'm on my way to DLing the soundtrack.

Awwwww, the felling of being deeply inlove is so heavenly.

Still remember the movie? I hope so because if not I'm going to kill you, nah. Just kidding.

This is one of the many movies listed on my favorites. Now, this movie shows true love.

As always, being the cry baby that I am. You got it right! I cried again, hahaha.

Oh and I must admit, Leonardo is so damn hot but he's way hotter on the movie the beach, hahaha.

If you haven't watched it yet better watch it, you'll not only know one of Shakespeare's greatest work but you'll definitely know a lot of things about love and peace and how it should conquer the world to end all those war.

One thing before you watch it, the language used was on the Old English one or should it be called the Shakespearean language such as "How art thou" or "O wilt thou". You know those language used by William Shakespeare on all his works.

It's a great movie to watch for. Although it's from the year 1996 but it's still one of the best movies ever made.

Anyway, boyfriend and I had a date yesterday. We watched a movie, guess what movie it is? It's step up 2: the streets, baby.

The movie's a wicked sick. I mean if shouting inside the movie house is allowed I would probably shouting my lungs out from being wowed by their dance moves. I know how some of you find it a little interesting but I'm such a great fan of movies with a concept just like this such as Honey, Stomp the yard, et cetera.

I totally regret turning my back from my first love which is dancing because if I didn't stopped I would at least be like them. Anyway, I have my own reason on retiring and it's valid enough. Well, I can still go back and pick up from where I left it.

I'll show you the part where I was really wowed and I was really bouncing into my seat from the excitement.

Go watch it.

I think I'll enjoy watching it over and over again. As of now I'll wait for the DVD copy before I can do that, hahaha. Come on, if I'm going to watch it on the cinema then I'll be one dead meat.

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Labels: blogging, movies, updates

Thursday, March 20, 2008
12:08 PM

I got tagged

10 things that made me happy today
Tagged by Cindy and Ishna

1. God. It's Holy Week and it made me closer to Him by knowing Him more and of course knowing myself more. This week made me realized a lot of things from my weaknesses to my strengths. Yea, I'm starting to find my way back to where I should be.
2. Family. I don't know but they just did.
3. The Boyfriend. I'm just so happy that despite everything that we've gone we're still together and counting for more years to come.
4. Friends. From the real world up to the cyberspace, you all made me smile not only today but each passing days.
5. Food. What can I do I'm so effin bored and all I can do is bum around while pigging out.
6. School's Bulletin Board - Maaaan, my name's listed on the candidate for graduation. Yay! I can't wait, I can't wait.
7. Health. I'm totally going back on track. Health is wealth baby, and I must say I'm totally in good shape now.
8. Del Monte Fit N' Right (Four Seasons). Just because I'm still off limits on indulging to my favorite coke zero, I'm totally indulging myself to a new love and it's good for me and my weight, hahaha.
9. Smallville. It's one of my ever long list favorite shows and I got to watch it again on DVD today.
10. Weather. It's getting hot in here and that means it's summer time. Wohoooo!

I'm tagging Beryl, Arianne, Brae, Kai, Kring.

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8 random facts/habits
Tagged by Beryl

Each blogger must post these rules first. Each blogger starts with eight random facts/habits about themselves. Bloggers that are tagged need to write on their own blog about their eight things and post these rules. At the end of your blog, you need to choose eight people to get tagged and list their names. Don't forget to leave them a comment telling them they're tagged, and to read your blog.

Here's what you don't know about me:

1. Before I can sleep I turn off the lights and when in bed I sometimes talk to myself in English like I am telling a bedtime story. Weird!
2. It's weird but I love smelling my boyfriend's armpit.
3. I can eat like a guy. Seriously, like I can eat 2-3 cups of rice. Well of course it will depend on my mood and the ulam.
4. I have the cutest finger. My little finger or should I say Ms. Pinky (you know that small finger near the ring finger) it's so cute that it's not straight. Complicated but I'll post pictures on my next blog so you could imagine it how cute it is.
5. For me the best way to spend money and not regret it is to spend it all on food. Like I would rather spend all of my money pigging out rather than buy clothes that will eventually fall out of season. Weird!
6. I envy people who are confident enough about who they are because seriously I sometimes hate myself for being who I am.
7. I'm most comfortable wearing shirt, jeans and slippers but of course I do dress up on occasions.
8. I wear whatever I am comfortable wearing whether it will be the "in" fashion of today or not. I do mix and match my clothes.

I'm tagging everyone on my list who would want to do this.

Labels: tagging

Wednesday, March 19, 2008
12:19 AM

Poems. Poems. Poems.

I made this poems for my world literature final examination.

3 quatrain, iambic tetrameter format

KINSHIP

I always thanked the Lord above
For giving me a mom and dad
That truly loves me as I am
And also care for me so much

We may not always be at one
And reaching it will not be done
But what matters most is our love
That will forever unite us

I will cherish them forever
And love them for eternity
For they will always be the one
Who keeps me breathing in this world

free verse

UNTITLED

You who always brighten up my day
And never fails to draw a smile on my face
You who always make me laugh
And take away my sorrows and pain

I never imagine having you in my life
But I don’t want you to leave my side
You are all that matters to me
And forever it will only be you and me

You and I are not perfect
And bumpy will our journey be
But one thing I know for sure
That our love will keep us holding on

This I will promise you
That nothing in this world can ever be compared to you
And no one else will come closer to my heart
Because it will only be you and me

Forever and ever, baby

haikus

GOOD OLD DAYS

In praise of the sun
I waved goodbye to the rain
And felt warmth inside

MISERY BUSINESS

Flow'rs are now falling
Just like the tears in my eyes
Sadness covers me

PS: We presented it to our professor today and guess what I forgot some of the lines on the kinship poem that I made. I was so nervous during the presentation that's the reason why my brain is not functioning pretty well. Oh well, I'll be back on the 26th to complete everything.

Labels: poems

Wednesday, March 12, 2008
11:36 PM

The urge to blog.

I really don't know what to say but there's this little voice in my head that keep on saying things about updating my blog. I know it sound stupid but what can I do about it, its my inner being that is calling me to do and update even if I don't have anything good to write about.

Arrrgh! What on earth is happening to me anyway? Was it because I can't wait till next week because I know by next week I'll be free to do whatever I wanted to do then or was it because I was so damn tired reviewing for my final examinations for tomorrow, for Friday and for Saturday.

I'm so not making any sense right now.

Anyway, since I've started blogging already I might as well go on but please do forgive my senseless mind right now. It's not functioning the way it should be.

Oh, and here goes the bullets. *Bang! Bang! Bang!*

- Done watching the whole season of Gossip Girl in a day
- Studying for my final examination
- Wondering if I'll graduate this year or not
- And if yes, I'm planning to have the Blair Waldorf style
- I want to change my blog, a total revamp will do good
- I want to be hosted but I'm so freaking scared
- Signed up at wordpress but I have no idea what to do with it
- Tweak my blog a little
- Still having headache from time to time but I'm doing great
- Blood Pressure as of today was 90/70 something
- Stomachache, not sure if I'm hungry or I want to make poopoo =))

That should be it for now. I need to get myself back on track or else I'll fail my final exams, maaaan!

I'll try to make a decent entry next time.

Labels: blogging, bullets, random, updates

Monday, March 10, 2008
7:54 PM

Boo sickness, boo.

Was sick for about a week, secret na lang yung dahilan pero hindi naman siya ganun kalala.

And because I was sick, I wasn't able to join my classmates on presenting our modern play for Noli Me Tangere and El Filibusterismo. In short, I wasn't able to do my practiced role which is sisa. I really felt disapponted at that time kung hindi nga lang ako nahihilo kahit na nasa 39 something degress yung temperature ko pupunta ako sa school para magpresent. Kaya lang sobrang hindi ko kaya kasi hilong-hilon ako.

Anyway, I'm not exaggerating anything here but my temperature went up to 40 degrees and stayed on a 39th something point. I was really freezing to death kahit na sobrang init nang panahon.

The boyfriend was he sweetest, he stayed my my side and even take good care of me. He was also the one who decided to have me checked in the hospital.

Anyway, speaking of check ups, we went to UDMC to have me checked and I was crying like a newborn child when I heard that they are going to take some blood samples. FYI: I'm afraid of the syringe and don't ask me why. The nurse whose injecting the needle on me even beg for me not to cry he said that "grabe, pinagpapawisan ako nang butil-butil sayo ate", hahaha! Was not able to say sorry to him, I made his life miserable for a moment.

I was supposed to be admitted immediately in the hospital, in short ma-co-confine ako dun because the doctor wants to keep track of my health because according to him I was really dehydrated at that time. I said no because I don't want to stay in th hospital and my family can take good care of me.

Thank God! Meron kaming kilala sa UDMC dahil kung wala admit ako agad.

I'm doing great now except for the headache but it's not as painful like last week.

Oh well, I have to go now. I still need to study final examination will be on thursday already and I also need to study for my special exams.

Labels: blogging, cramming, health, school, updates

Tuesday, March 4, 2008
12:59 PM

Nagdra-drama lang po.

Grabe! Ang bilis nang panahon at sa sobrang bilis hindi ko namalayan na March na pala kung hindi ko lang napansin yung blog post ko na March na ang date tsaka kung hindi pa ako tumingin sa kalendaryo.

Ewan pero alam niyo noong nalaman ko na March na sobrang nalungkot ako kasi naman ilang araw na lang magbabakasyon na. Ang weird ko na pero hindi naman dahil sa bakasyon syempre naman gusto ko naman magkaroon nang pahinga lalo na sa dami nang ginawa sa school. Kaya ako nalungkot kasi alam ko na kapag nagpasukan na ulit hindi na ako sa school papasok, sa office na. Ang drama ko ba? Sorry naman.

Sobrang nararamdaman ko tuloy yung lungkot kasi ang dami nang tumatawag sa akin na mga call center para kunin ako na magwork sa kanila. Bakit call center? Pano ba naman noong nagkaroon kami nang job fair puro call center company ang nandun. Sa totoo lang ayaw ko sana mag-apply kaya lang kunukulit kami nong isang school staff na naghahandle nang mga students, pinipilit niya kami na mag-apply. Ayun, nag-apply na lang ako para naman wala silang masabi. After lang nang ilang araw tinatawagan na ako kasi meron daw silang opening, huminhingi ako nang time hindi dahil sa ayaw ko magwork kundi mas priority ko yung studies ko kaya sabi ko sa kanila na okay lang ba kung mag-dropby na lang ako sa office nila as walking applicant kasi nga nag-aaral pa ako.

Lalo pa ako nalungkot nong meron akong mabasa na blog tungkol sa ganitong situation yun nga lang sa kanya hindi pa siya graduate. Grabe, hindi ko alam na mas nakakalungkot pala kapag gra-graduate ka nang college kesa kapag highschool. Nakaka-asar pa kasi kung kelan naman ang dami kong na-meet na mga new friends doon pa ako mawawala. Ang mas nakakaasar naman e kung kelan pa kami naging okay nong 2 friends ko na medyo nawala sa akin for almost 2 (or 3) years ata doon pa kami maghihiwalay dahil pare-parehas kami gra-graduate.

Ewan. Ayoko nang ganitong feeling, hindi ko kinakaya masyado ako nadadala. Kung pwede nga lang na hindi ko ipasa yung ibang minor subject ko gagawin ko para lang hindi ko mamiss yung mga friends na maiiwan ko sa school. Syempre hindi ko naman pwedeng gawin yun dahil kapag ginawa ko yun baka masapok ako nang nanay ko.

Aaaaaaaah! Ayaw ko nang ganito, naiiyak na tuloy ako.

Sige na. Hindi ko na feel yung ganitong entry masyadong ewan sa pakiramdam. Promise next post masaya na ulit.

Saturday, March 1, 2008
12:52 PM

Guess who's back (back, back). Back again (again, again).

Nope! Mr. Slim Shady ain't back but I am. Woot! Woot! I'm back again from that very long haitus *phew*, although school still ain't over I guess my workloads would be more lighter than the previous weeks.

I'm gonna update you now but pardon me because my life ain't that exciting.

Remember when I said that we are going to perform the modern version of Noli and El Fili last tuesday. Well, it didn't happened because our Rizal professor is not feeling well. It sucks because he informed us like an hour before the presentation time wherein almost all of us are already done fixing ourselves for the play. We all have our costumes and make-up done then *poof* the presentation was cancelled. I'm going to portray the very famous and intriguing character of sisa and I must admit that I like it, I don't care about maria clara because Sisa's the best.

Here's my Modern Day Sisa look

I don't look like Sisa-ish much but it's a modern version, so I guess it's okay. But if you have any suggestions about the look then you can still say so because our presentation was moved and we are going to perform it on March 2, which is also a Tuesday.

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Last February 27 (Wednesday) and February 28 (Thursday) was our school sportsfest which is entitled dls-sti l.e.a.p to 2008: sportsfest 2008. T'was both fun and boring. Fun because of course no classes and all we have to do was to go to the court and cheer for our team or should I say for our friends. Boring because it really was, hahaha.

Anyway, t'was on the first day of the sportsfest that we compete with the other team for the volleybal women's division and because t'was only a single-game competition we were out and was not able to compete with the other team. In short, we lose. Blame it on the student who stood as our coach, arrrgh! ang yabang niya soooobra.

Second day was a blast. Eventhough we don't have a game anymore to participate, we still went there for two main reasons: (1) April will be there and (2) cheer for our friends who made it to the championship.

Don't ask me why we are all in black, we didn't talked or planned about it. It just happened and seriously, I don't know what's with the color why almost all of us are wearing black.

I wasn't able to record the cheering routines but I'm going to ask for a copy if they have one then I'll post it in here. You'll probably love what the red team did, we are all laughing our ass of when they are performing. They are soooo great.

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February 29 was considered the must fuck up day on our entire life. Imagine all of us (my Rizal classmates and I) went up early because our Rizal professor told us that we are going to perform our interpretative dance for the second time.

Unfortunately, it didn't happened and was again cancelled like an hour before the performance.

Instead of making myself mad, I went to the mall to meet-up with hubby because he was there to accompany his auntie. They where in great image when I went there.

I saw the whole body mirror of great image and I kinda have a share of my vanity in there too, hahaha. I sooo want to have those kind of mirrors.

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There goes my boring life. Anyway, our school have a field trip today until monday but I didn't come with them because I just don't want to. I'll be hanging around for awhile and do my rounds and commenting.

Anyway, you can go check out all the photos on my multiply.

Labels: blogging, boring life, random, updates

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