Memoir of an Heiress

Saturday, January 26, 2008
10:56 AM

Still on a haitus

Dito ako sa school ngayon and obviously computer nang school gamit ko. I didn't bring my laptop with me, exam kasi sa accounting. Update muna nang blog kasi nasisiraan na ata ako nang ulo sa kaka-aral nang accounting, hahaha. Last day na nang exam ko although hindi pa din ako mag-blog masyado kasi I still have one more task to do, thesis. I promise, after nang defense namin I'll update you kung anong mga nangyari sa akin. By the way, please do pray for me and my group na makapasa sa thesis defense namin. We badly need your prayers and support.

See you on my next blog, aral na muna ulit ako kasi malapit na exam ko sa accounting wala pa din pumapasok sa utak ko, hahaha.

Miss you all.

[x] My auto linker is not working, ewan ko kung bakit. Kaya yung mga nag-iwan nang link nila hindi ko makita.
[xx] I'll reply to all comments as soon as I'm done with my thesis
[xxx] Ngayon ko lang nakita yung blog ko sa ibang computer, ang pangit pala. Asar yung fonts, hahaha.

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My accounting exam didn't do good, kahit hindi pa na-che-check alam ko mababa ako. Kamusta naman kasi ang 50 minutes na exam, ano yung instant noodles, hahaha. Asar.

By the way, meron na naman akong new feature sa blog. Yung rated chuva thing, hahaha. Wala naman.
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Labels: random, updates

Sunday, January 20, 2008
10:23 PM

Call It Negligence

I know I've been neglecting my blog for quite awhile but I have a very good and reasonable question behind it. I'm totally being occupied with my school works since on the 23rd up to the 26th will be my midterm examinations while on the 28th will be my thesis defense.

I'm not really much worried on my midterm exams because I know I can passed it but it's my thesis that I'm really worried about because if I'm not going to passed that thesis then I'm not going to graduate this semester. Even if I do study hard to passed all my subject it will still be useless if I failed that thesis.

Everything is doing fine on the thesis part although the only problem would be the hardware incorporated with it, anyway we still have 8 days to go before our defense and I just wish we can make it. Please do pray for us.

Another thing why I can't go online that much is because my internet connection is being a bitch on me, hahaha. Oh, I really hate it. I already applied for a new dsl connection on bayantel but it's already been 2 weeks and no personnel is reporting in our house or even a phone call. Nothing, nothing at all.

Geez, all they need to do is to call me and tell me that they still don't have an available line and that they will get back at me as soon as they're going to install the internet connection already. I'm trying to call their service hotline for almost a week now but there is still no answer from them. Grrrrr!

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Because I can't go online that much I just keep myself busy wacthing television, that is if I'm not doing my thesis. I was just so amazed with MTV's my super sweet sixteen and maaan it's really wow and until now I just can't help but wish that I'm as rich as them. I watched the episode where she asked her father for a BMW car, fireworks at the end of the show, helicopter and carriage on her grand entrance. It's wicked! She's only sixteen but she has a BMW car. When she's on with her shopping, she'll not leave the shop without nothing on her hand. She doesn't shop for the sale or discounted items but she shops for the signature ones such as coach, prada, you name it she got it.

Arrrrgh! I'm still on my jealousy state right now. I wish I was as lucky as her.

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Guess who wants a new laptop? MEEEEEEE.

Darnfudgeit! I've been drooling over the new apple macbook air since the very first day that I saw it's launching over the television and the internet. I'm loving it more than that of asus.

Ohhhhh, I super want it. It'll be on store here in the Philippines of February.

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Anyway, my cbox is working again. The month premium contract was expired already but everything's back to normal now. Leave me more comments, I sooo love reading them.

Please don't forget about the question box that I have, if you have questions you can drop it there and I promise to answer them all.

Monday, January 14, 2008
7:52 PM

A Philosophy Of Life

Last thursday on our VALFORM (Values Formation) subject our professor prepared an activity which will let us know ourselves up to the very deepest soul. He showed us 10 questions that need to be answered whole-heartedly because whatever answer that you will write will reflect you're personality and outlook in life.

1. Who am I? - I am a nobody who dreams to be a somebody but still remains to be the same old nobody.
2. What is my purpose in life? - To fulfill my duty as a woman, to love and be loved in return, to touch one's life and soul, to live mylife to the fullest.
3. Who is the God I trust and believe in? - I trust and believe in the God, the Father, the Son, and the Holy Spirit who created us. He will and always will be the One true God.
4. Who are the important people in my life? - Family (father, mother, & sister), relatives (from grandparents to cousins), boyfriend, and of course, my friends.
5. What are the things that pleases me? - Material things because it is innate in man's nature to be please with material things but I'm more satisfied with the little and simple things done for me by the people dear to me.
6. What are my ambitions and plans in life? - To finish school, have a stable job, and to live happily ever after with the man I love.
7. How will I work to achieve my goals? - Work hard and show my boyfriend how important he is to me.
8. How can I serve other people? - By offering help to them up to the extent on what I can give.
9. What brings me peace of mind? - When I have no enemies, when my mind is a problem-free zone because I know I can sleep soundly, when I'm satisfied.
10. How I will wish to die? - I wish to die happy which means that I died completing my mission here on earth.

As I look at the questions as well as listen to the professor's explanations and guide, my mind is starting to wander somewhere over the rainbow and I thought that the questions are easy. When it's time to answer the questions I find it hard to answer every questions, it's like there are two people arguing inside my head. I don't know why but I guess both my pessimistic and optimistic persona are talking to me at the same time. I know that I'm a very optimistic person but there's also a side of me that is not but I never did entertain it until the day that I'm trying to know my inner self.

For the very first time in my life, I've been dumbfounded when it comes to myself. I was really wandering into the world of nothingness where no can help me escape except myself alone. I never ever thought that solitude would cover my whole body but right then and there, it did.

It's not that I don't know who I am but the activity just made me realized that there are still something deep within me that I don't know because I made myself satisfied with the things that I have now. I realized that I should not stop craving for things even if I'm already satisfied because through that cravings comes new life, new experiences, new dreams to achieve, new you.

Just as I thought that I'm already a matured grown-up because I'm satisfied and contented with everything but I was wrong. I made a fool out of myself by not playing with my mind and emotions because I choose to stay at a place where I will be safe and not get hurt. In return for the security that I have I wasn't able to learn and dream for new things because just like what I've said I was satisfied with the things that I have now and did not bother to entertain my craving for new things.

So I promise myself to not let my guard up to high when it comes to myself, I just hope it's not yet to late.

Minsan talaga hindi maganda na mababaw lang yung kaligayahan mo kasi madali kang nakukuntento sa kung anong meron ka at sa kung anong nangyayari sa iyo. Hindi naman sa nawawalan ka ng pangarap pero iba talaga kasi yung feeling na kuntento ka na. Hindi kaya natatakot lang talaga ako na kilalanin nang lubusan kong sino man ako?

Even if the subject (valform) is about basic knowledge about the school rules and self-awareness. I still did not expect that I'll learn something deep from it, something that will turn my life to 180 degress, if not 360 degrees.

Enough about the drama, let laugh now, hahaha! Again, hahaha! One more time, hahaha! Phew, that's better.

By the way, I gave you a wrong information on my uppydates entry. Our midterm exams will start on the 23rd of January which means about 2 weeks from now, so I still have a week to relax and after that I'll start burying my head on my notebooks. Oh, for the thesis I still don't know when was the real schedule for the defense because the schedule that we have were only tentative schedules. I just wish they will not schedule it during the examination week just like what they've done last semester.

Still on the thesis, we already found the hardware that we are going to use. It costs at around Php 4,000/each for the reader and Php 80/each for the tags but that was according to their website. We will call them on Monday to confirm the prices and asked them some questions. Hope it's really the device that we are looking for.

Anyway, my hubby will turn 25 on the 15th and I still don't know what to give him while the next day we'll be celebrating our 7 years and 4 months anniversary. I'm feeling the breeze of ever after, *kilig*

happy birthday to all january celebrants and stay inlove to all couples celebrating their anniversary, monthsary, or even day-sary. I know it's already 2 weeks late but Hey! It's better to late than never.

Saturday, January 12, 2008
9:00 PM

TO ALL THE KIDS WHO WERE BORN IN THE 1950's, 60's and 70's

Here's an email that was sent to me by my dad and I want to share it to all of you because it somehow reminds me of the good old times. It's nice to go down the memory lane once in a while.

First, some of us survived being born to mothers who smoked and/or drank while they carried us. (sioktong ang inumin)

They took aspirin, ate blue cheese dressing, fish from a can (brand : ligo), and didn't get tested for diabetes.

Then after that trauma, our baby cribs were covered with bright colored lead-based paints, pati na yung laruang kabayu-kabayuhan.

We had no childproof lids on medicine bottles, doors or cabinets and when we rode our bikes, we had no helmets, no kneepads , sometimes wala ngang preno yung bisikleta.

As children, we would ride in car with no seat belts or air bags – hanggang ngayon naman, di ba? (jeep)

Riding in the back of a pick up on a warm day was always a special treat. (maykaya kayo pare!)

We drank water from the garden hose and NOT from a bottle (minsan straight from the faucet)

We shared one soft drink with four friends, from one bottle and NO ONE actually died from this. Or contacted hepatitis.

We ate rice with tinunaw na purico (dahil ubos na ang star margarine), nutribuns na galing kay macoy and drank sopdrinks with sugar in it, but we weren't overweight kasi nga... WE WERE ALWAYS OUTSIDE PLAYING!!

We would leave home in the morning and play all day, as long as we were back when the streetlights came on. Sarap mag patintero, tumbang preso , habulan taguan...

No one was able to reach us all day (di uso ang celfon , walang beepers). And we were O.K.

We would spend hours building our trolleys or slides out of scraps and then ride down the street, only to find out we forgot the brakes. After running into the bushes a few times, we learned to solve the problem.

We did not have Playstations, Nintendo's, X-boxes, no video games at all, no 99 channels on cable, no video tape movies, no surround sound, no cell phones, no personal computers, no Internet or Internet chat rooms... WE HAD FRIENDS and we went outside and found them!

We fell out of trees, got cut, broke bones and teeth and there were no lawsuits from these accidents. The only rubbing we get is from our friends with the words... masakit ba? pero pag galit yung kalaro mo, ang sasabihin sa iyo... beh buti nga!

We play in the dirt , wash our hands a little and ate with our barehands... we were not afraid of getting worms in our stomachs.

We have to live with homemade guns – gawa sa kahoy, tinali ng rubberband, sumpit, tirador at kung ano ano pa na puedeng makasakit... pero walang nagrereklamo. made up games with sticks (syatong)and cans (tumbang preso)and although we were told it would happen, wala naman tayong binulag o napatay... paminsan minsan may nabubukulan.

We rode bikes or walked to a friend's house and knocked on the door or rang the bell, or just yelled for them!

Mini basketball teams had tryouts and not everyone made the team. Those who didn't had to learn to deal with disappointment. Walang sumasama ang loob.

Ang magulang ay nandoon lang para tignan kung ayos lang ang bata... hindi para makialam.

This generation of ours has produced some of the best risk-takers, problem solvers and managers ever! The past 50 years have been an explosion of innovation and new ideas. We had freedom, failure, success and responsibility, and we learned HOW TO DEAL WITH IT ALL! And YOU are one of them! CONGRATULATIONS!

You might want to share this with others who have had the luck to grow up as kids, before the government regulated our lives for our own good and while you are at it, forward it to your kids so they will know how brave their parents were.

Kind of makes you want to run through the house with scissors, doesn't it?!

Labels: reminisce

Friday, January 11, 2008
11:00 PM

uppydates

I'm not feeling well today actually it started last night and up to now I'm still not okay although I can still manage to do stuffs as well as go to school. I got coughs and headache and I feel that I'm going to have colds also.

Hell week will be next week (I guess) and when you say hell week they will really give you a freakin' week. According to our professors, the midterm exams is scheduled by next week although we can't see any exam schedule posted on the bulletin board yet and also our thesis defense is scheduled on the 17th up to the 2nd day of February. It's really on hella week (or should I say weeks) for me.

Speaking of Thesis, we still have one problem and it's the hardware that we are going to use. The specifications that we are looking for are not available and if it's available it cost so much that we can't afford it anymore. Hope we'll be able to find an RFID before our defense or we'll be spending another semester just for the thesis.

I'm not in the mood to blog right now because my head is still aching, so I'll update you as soon as I'm a-okay.

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RUSH SALE: MOTOROLA V3X (PINK)

Wednesday, January 9, 2008
6:10 PM

I am WOMAN, hear me ROAR

Yessss, the title was inspired from the month of January of belle de jour. I'm really loving it. I guess it's not yet to late to make an entry on my 2008 goals. I won't call it new year's resolution anymore because I felt that its not the right term to call it, opposed me now but that's my opinion.

meet new friends
This is not a hard goal to achieve since I already did start meeting new sets of friends over the internet.

meet my online friends
As I have said, I do meet lots of people over the internet and become friends with them. Even if I met some of them for almost a year or two I still haven't got the chance to meet them personally. There may be incidents that I'll meet them but it's either I'm busy with school or I have another commitment during that day. I'm not in any way going to force people, I'll wait for the right time and only God knows when.

read books
It's been a while since I last opened and read a book and hopefully I'll be able to read a good book this year. Maybe you can give suggestions on what books should I read to start my bookworm-side-of-me to be unleashed. What do you think?

loose weight
It's not that I am obese or super fat but I just want to know the feeling of loosing some inches. I'm not going to give myself an exact number of inches or pounds because it will only disappoint me if I will not meet my goal so just to loose some excess package will do good for me.

finish school
This is my last year in college and hopefully I'll be one of the many hopeful graduates of batch 2008. Hopefully I'll graduate with flying colors, I don't care if I'm not in the honorable section because all I care is to have high grades or a GWA of not less than 2.00 but definitely higher than 2.00 ofcourse.

be hired immediately
After I graduated I really wish to be hired immediately. I'm not going to allow myself be jobless for a month or 2 months (maximum), I'll grab every opportunity that will come to me because I know that course related job will not yet come for newly graduates except of course if you're an honor student.

save money
Ohhhh, I really need your prayers and support on this one. This one's pretty tough for me because I'm a ms. super-big-splender when it comes to food. Yessss, pigging out is one of my favorite past time that's why I look like a pig now. Hahaha! I really need to save up.

buy a washing machine
This one's for my lola, noong 2007 pa siya naglalambing na gusto na niya nang bagong washing machine kaya kahit gaano kamahal tsaka kahit 12 months ko pa bayaran ayos lang para naman sa pinakamamahal kong lola yun.

have my own car and get a license
I don't know if mom will just surprised me because everytime I'm begging for a car she's always saying: "kapag nakagraduate ka na at nakapag-trabaho ka na." I'm not going to expect but I'll save some money to buy my own car kahit hindi masyadong modelo na kotse okay na for a start. Of course, get a license. Hahaha. I know hiw to drive already because hubby taught me how to but I don't have a license yet that's why I can't practice driving that much. license and own car here I come!

enroll myself in photography class
I'll probably enroll on a crash course in photography that is if there is such a thing here in the Philippines as crash courses, hahaha.

I still have lots on my mind but I guess this would do good for now because some goals need not to be written but should be acted upon immediately.

Sunday, January 6, 2008
10:09 PM

Sulat ni Tatay at Nanay

This is not my work, it is someone else masterpiece. I heard this being read over the radio on the last weeks of december 2007, and it really touched by heart. I'm sharing this to you because I'm hoping that it will also touch yours.

SOURCE: Sulat ni Tatay at Nanay

Sa aking pagtanda, unawain mo sana ako at pagpasensiyahan.
Kapag dala ng kalabuan ng mata ay nakabasag ako ng pinggan o nakatapon ng sabaw sa hapag kainan, huwag mo sana akong kagagalitan.
Maramdamin ang isang matanda.
Nagse- self-pity ako sa tuwing sinisigawan mo ako.
Kapag mahina na ang tenga ko at hindi ko maintindihan ang sinasabi mo, huwag mo naman sana akong sabihan ng "binge!" paki-ulit nalang ang sinabi mo o pakisulat nalang.
Pasensya ka na, anak. Matanda na talaga ako.
Kapag mahina na ang tuhod ko, pagtiyagaan mo sana akong tulungang tumayo, katulad ng pag- aalalay ko sa iyo noong nag-aaral ka pa lamang lumakad.
Pagpasensyahan mo sana ako kung ako man ay nagiging makulit at paulit-ulit na parang sirang plaka.
Basta pakinggan mo nalang ako.
Huwag mo sana akong Pagtatawanan o pagsasawaang pakinggan.
Natatandaan mo anak noong bata ka pa? kapag gusto mo ng lobo, paulit-ulit mo 'yong sasabihin, maghapon kang mangungulit hangga't hindi mo nakukuha ang gusto mo. Pinagtyagaan ko ang kakulitan mo.
Pagpasensyahan mo na rin sana ang aking amoy. Amoy matanda, amoy lupa.
Huwag mo sana akong piliting maligo.
Mahina na ang katawan ko.
Madaling magkasakit kapag nalamigan, huwag mo sana akong pandirihan.
Natatandaan mo noong bata ka pa? Pinagtyagaan kitang habulin As ilalim ng kama kapag ayaw mong maligo.
Pagpasensyahan mo sana kung madalas, ako'y masungit, Dala na marahil ito ng katandaan.
Pagtanda mo, maiintindihan mo rin.
Kapag may konti kang panahon, magkwentuhan naman tayo, kahit sandali lang. Inip na ako sa bahay, maghapong nag- iisa.
Walang kausap.
Alam kong busy ka sa trabaho, subalit nais kong malaman mo na sabik na sabik Na akong makakwentuhan ka, kahit alam kong hindi ka interesado sa mga kwento ko.
Natatandaan mo anak, noong bata ka pa? Pinagtyagaan kong pakinggan at intindihin ang
pautal-utal mong kwento tungkol sa iyong teddy bear.
At kapag dumating ang sandali na ako'y magkakasakit at maratay sa banig ng karamdaman, huwag mo sana akong pagsawaang alagaan.
Pagpasensyahan mo na sana kung ako man ay maihi o madumi sa higaan, Pagtyagaan mo sana akong alagaan sa mga huling sandali ng aking buhay.
Tutal hindi na naman ako magtatagal.
Kapag dumating ang sandali ng aking pagpanaw, hawakan mo sana ang aking kamay At bigyan mo ako ng lakas ng loob na harapin ang kamatayan.
At huwag kang mag-alala, kapag kaharap ko na ang Diyos na lumikha, ibubulong ko sa kanya na pagpalain ka sana .....
Dahil naging mapagmahal ka sa iyong ama't ina...

Labels: blogging

Thursday, January 3, 2008
10:04 PM

Hey 2008!

Hey everyone! How was your New Year? Did you enjoyed it? Did you have fun? I had a crazy and fun New Year this year, I really started rocking 2008 last Tuesday.

I spent the holidays in two different places, here in Manila for the New Year's Eve and in Pampanga for the New Year's Day.

My New Year's Eve goes like Food + Karaoke + Games + Alcohols (Jose Cuervo & Red Horse) + Major Camwhoring = Extremely Crazy Hardcore Partyyyyy. Not much fun, right? Hahaha! T'was really cool because I got to spend it with my family and relatives, I definitely had a blast. Didn't spend much on fireworks and all we have are sparklers, fountains, sinturon ni hudas, and the dynamite like fire crackers, hahaha! Thank you very much to our neighbors for that wonderful fireworks display, hahaha.

Then my cousins along with my sister and boyfie went to Pampanga to attend a barrio fiesta at one of its town. T'was also fun because I got to see more artistic presentation of the ati-atihan and much more. Although I'm a little disappointed because I didn't saw the majorettes perform at its best but all-in-all I had a very great time. How can I forget the food, maaaan they're so yummy.

Pictures are posted on my multiply, so if you're one of my contacts then you'll definitely see it but if not then go ahead and add me. Just leave a message which contains memoir of an heiress, so I know that you came across my blog.

All-in-all I am awake for almost 3-days since the morning of December 31 from midnight of January 2, although I got to take a nap during our trip back to Manila from Pampanga.

happy new year everyone

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